That shitty grey area

What happens when you’re stuck between knowing what you want to say and being able to say it?

It’s that shitty grey area where your body, heart, spirit and soul are screaming in defense of the part of you aching for recognition. The part that wants beyond anything to be heard. The part that wants to feel the weight off your shoulders when you release the truth – your truth.

And it feels lousy. You fret, you worry, you stress. Your body probably aches in some way. Your sleep is disrupted. You numb out because you don’t know what else to do. You say yes more than you want to, say no not enough, and people please.

And possibly the worst thing is that each time you don’t take the risk to speak up, you believe you have let yourself down yet again, cementing that you actually deserve it.

It hurts my heart to think about how hard we women are on ourselves so I want to remind you that when it comes to speaking up for yourself, you CAN do it. You can say what you need to, and even let it fly when it’s called for. (My polite way of just saying it like it is without needing a resolution or conversation. Because, you know there are times.)

Even if you’re scared, and a little bit comfy where you are right now with expressing your wants and needs, you absolutely have this in you to honour who you are inside.

We were not born to sit back and feel stifled or small. We were born to use our true selves to feel fulfilled and happy. Whatever that looks like.

I get that space in between, where you know but you just can’t say, and it can be hard to shift out of. So simply start with you. Yes, that means shifting the pull to blame others for keeping you there, and digging into your own w’s.

Why am I feeling resentful, hurt, angry or sad? What is it about a certain situation or other person’s behaviour that triggers me? What do I know to be true about myself that is getting trampled down in those moments, days, weeks, years – because sometimes this shit can go on for what feels like forever?

We dig because the more we know about our truth, the easier it is to rock the confidence that we think we don’t have but actually always did. Its deep core digging, where we get to know who we are and work to reflect her.

It took me a very long time to figure that out for myself. But each new level I reached gave me more hope, more self-awareness, and more validation that who I am is who I need to be. Let me know if you want to know more about how to get there too.

You can stay where you are, you don’t ever need to do what a blog tells you to. After all, free will is kicking your own ass.

But you know what is also kicking your own ass?

Finally saying exactly what you know full well you need to say.

Ready? Just start.

Dianna xo